They gnaw like rats
at the sinews of my soul
gather nests in my head
their smell is always with me

nipping my ankles
as I stumble into traps
what I need
are cats.

I open my mouth to explain
and find myself laughing, speechless.
There is no language
for the mounting surge
growing in my bones
*
Some power, like love and hate
terrifying and thrilling
something deep and dark and beautiful.
A challenge. A dare. A shout!
It is who I am.

woah.. i haven’t been on here for a while.. haven’t been keeping up..

dial up is miserable slow.. or esle i’d be on 24/7

but it seems to be alive and kicking to me!!!

anyways i will try to post more!!!!! and comment too! i have been reading some and you guys are amazing@!! <3333

Areya Sunshine

The air is colder now

Cool enough to keep me awake

I’ve given up asking how

I’m just waiting for the galaxy to break

The frozen earth is my shattered dream

The wind is my conscience running cold

The sea is filled with all my tears

The open sky’s my broken soul

The stars are hidden

Behind a fading storm

The heartbeat keeps on beating

A rhythm for being born

I stand at the nexus

Of every moment we’ve lived

Walking barefoot on an ocean

Hanging by my fingernails

To the window of your soul

As mine keeps on fading

And you will never know

My body breaks

My heart is numb

The storm has reached us

But the tears have stopped

Well, here it is. I figured that, since it’s been a forever since I added to the story, I’d do another chapter. So, I wrote. If you guys need a refresher of what happened in the earlier chappies… FIND ‘EM ON YOUR OWN! Lol, sorry. …I should be doing homework, shouldn’t I? Oh, well. Whatever. Later. Have fun! Warning: another cliffy. Sorta. Not really. But kinda. Oh, well. I’ll leave you to decide!!!

Hearts!
Jules

I could see again, and I was gasping for air, but I still wasn’t paying attention to what people were saying. Danny and Todd both had hold of one of my arms.
My eyes traveled to Ellen and Susan, who were standing with an umbrella, a foot behind the boys, staring wide-eyed and freaked out. I pulled myself up and told the guys to let go of me.
“Ellen and I heard a noise,” Susan started.
“So we came outside. What happened here?” Ellen finished.
I made a run for it, into the house, around the corner a few times, up the stairs, and stepped into my room (our room), closing the door behind me.
“Jessica, what happened?” Ellary asked me.
“Jessica, you’re so wet! You have to dry of right now! Don’t touch anything, please!” Malery freaked.
“I was outside in the rain.”
Malery passed me a towel and went into my drawers, pulling out a sweatshirt and some jeans. I watched her make sure the drawstring was completely even on both sides as I dried my hair.
“You’re going to catch a cold, girl. What’s—Oh, guess what I saw today! I saw a dog! Out the window! It was sooo cute! Just like my gramma’s dog. My gramma’s dog died though. It was in July. July gets really hot. I don’t like July. It gets very bothersome. Like rats.” She started shuffling through some scattered papers that sat next to her on her bed. “I don’t like rats,” she finished very quietly when Malery sent her a shut up look.
It was pretty much silent in the room more a little over a moment. I took this moment to think about what I’d heard while I was slipping. One of them, Todd, I was sure, had said I was slipping into Tensia. Or, rather, being pulled into. …What’s Tensia? Or, where is Tensia? I’ve never heard of it. Well, I decided, heck, let’s give it a shot by asking Malery and Ellary.
“Hey, guys?” I decided to start out casually.
“Yeah?” they both responded at the same time.
I sat down on my bed, taking a deep breath and letting it out before saying, “Do you guys know about a place called Tensia?”
Malery gave me a blank look, like I was crazy, then, when she heard the clock tick to 8:30 PM, she touched her temple. She did this every half-hour. It was one of her crazy obsessions. She said it was to refill her twenty-five thought topics she could half each half hour. I never understood people with OCD.
Ellary’s jaw dropped open at the mention of Tensia. “You mean, like, the realm of the fairies and spirits? Of course I’ve heard of Tensia. It’s only where all six of the Boundary Castle books take place!”
“Of course you would’ve read those child-books.” Malery rolled her eyes.
“I’ll have you know they’re young-adult books! And they’re very well-written. I find them better than Harry Potter! I couldn’t get through Harry Potter. Too many pages. Like, way too many.”
“They only have like one-hundred-and-sixty pages each. That’s why I call them child-books.”
“That’s why there’re six of them! That’s also why I can get through them so easily.”
“Guys,” I cut in, “I just want to know about it. Someone, uh, mentioned it before.” Oh yeah, Jessie, great cover.
“I’ll tell you ALL ABOUT it! Okay, so, these fairies and spirits live there, and there’s this division line between the north and south halves and those two sides like hate each other and they both have different dialects of the same language and there’s this castle in the middle of the borderline, where the king and queen live. In the latest one, the old king and queen died, so now they have new ones. Now they have a king Liamo and a queen Alexine. Hah! It rhymes! Oh my god that’s so cool I didn’t notice that before omigod stuff that rhymes is so cool, right?”
“Ellary? Let’s get back to the point. I’d, uh, like to hear more about this place,” I said.
“Oh, right yeah! K. So, the new queen, Alexine—hehe it rhymes –she used to live in the human world cause her evil cousin, Ryah, put her there. But then she and her friend found a way back into Tensia, by going under the bridge in the park and doing some weird magic thing, and then they made their way to the borderline and she regained the throne and chose him as her king, and so now, in the next book, which shall be coming out in, uh…” she took a moment to think. “…uh… forty-seven days, Ryah shall take out his revenge on them. Cause he’s plotting his revenge in the end of the sixth book, and he’s going to get these five kids to go kill the king and queen. But we all know that they’re not going to kill anyone, cause you can’t kill the king and queen. Duh. So, we all know he won’t succeed, but I still wanna read it cause of all the suspense and awesomeness! Man, you really have to read the books!” She was finally all done. Wow. Wondered how I’d retain all that.
“That the one thing you’ve ever been able to memorize about literature?” I asked.
“Of course not! I can remember other stuff! I once got a ten on my book report for some books we read in like sixth grade!”
“Out of?” Malery asked.
“Ten.”
“Impressive,” I said. Ellary beamed. “That the only time?”
Her proud expression faded. “Yeah, I think so.”
Okay, so, I guess that was all we were gonna say about that for the night.

I was sound asleep by ten. I don’t remember the exact time, but it was somewhere around then. And then I dreamt.
I was in a big stone room, as in the walls were made of stones. There were chandeliers hanging from the ceiling and two thrones—empty –against the far wall. There were hushed voices, speaking in a language I couldn’t understand, coming from behind me. Then I smelled blood. I looked around, saw the other four Mares, a bunch of other people… and two corpses by the wall. Someone grabbed my hand, I looked down at it. Danny. I averted my gaze, shook my hand away, and stared at the bodies.
They sure did look regal, but… they looked about our age, and it was just a boy and a girl, probably tenth graders or something. The entire room went silent when a door opened behind us all. The crowd parted like the Red Sea, and in walked a man. He must’ve been seventeen, or something close by, and he looked evilly content.
Ryah. It had to be him.
He turned to face the crowd once he made it to the throne on the left, and began speaking that weird language. He saluted at us, the Mares, and frowned. His tone changed when he noticed the corpses. He said four more words, and immediately we were being taken by the arms, dragged out.
“What’s going on?” I asked.
“I don’t know,” Todd answered me, “I think he’s telling them to kill us.”
“Elane!!!” Sandy screamed.
“Sandy!” Elane sobbed.
“Cut he’s the criminal,” I shouted, “He’s the one that made us do it, isn’t he?”
“They don’t understand us. They speak Tenadii or something. They don’t get English. They won’t understand your pleas. We best just shut up,” Daniel mumbled into my ear.
We reached a chamber, where each of us was thrown to the ground, and were locked up. It was dark down there.
“Is this what’s going to happen?” I thought out loud.
“What do you mean?” Elane asked.
“I mean, is this what’s going to happen to us if we escape from the House?”
“What are you talking about? We already escaped. We’re here,” Todd snapped.
“Huh? I thought this was a dream—”

I threw off the covers and took in my surroundings. I was back at the House. I was safe… for now.