Chapter One
The whole winter break had swept by faster than anything I’d ever experienced. I told myself it wouldn’t ever end, but it did, as if it were only two days long. I woke up this morning to the surprise of my alarm.
I slowly turned over and rolled out of bed. I fell onto the ground and jolted awake. My green eyes immediately opened. My long black hair fell into my face and all I could see was a sea of all the strands. I sighed. The sound of my body hitting the wooden floor was kinda loud. I wondered what my mom would say. Just then her voice echoed down the hallway, faintly. My door was closed and I couldn’t hear her. I was basically forced to get up. I carefully stood up, almost hitting my head on the night stand next to my bed. I walked over to the door. I opened it hesitantly, hoping my mom’s voice wasn’t too loud this morning. Just that moment she decided to start walking up the stairs and down the hallway. I looked at her through drowsy eyes.
“Is everything okay Liam?”
“Yeah.”
“Yeah what?”
“I fell out of bed.”
“You haven’t done that since you were nine. Go get ready for school. It’s a long sleeve day.”
“Yeah.”
I shut the door and dropped myself backwards onto the bed again. I rolled over to sleep on my side. My mom knocked on the door again.
“You’d better not be going back to sleep in there!”
“Yeah.”
I had no choice but to sit back up.
I scanned the room with my eyes, to see where I’d set out my clothes the day before.
The floor had scattered papers all over it with numerous songs I’d written over the break, all about everything I could imagine to write about.
Other things on the floor, such as socks, very many books, a hair brush, and a few more scattered objects I don’t remember creating, like a little clay tortoise I must have made at camp over the summer.
I stood up and walked over to my drawers. I lazily pulled the top one open and stared blankly at the piles of shirts in there, mostly still short sleeved from the summer.
I chose my outfit, not really caring, a green shirt and jeans. Just plain old green and jeans. I guessed that since it didn’t have long sleeves I’d probably want to wear a sweatshirt, just in case my mom had a fit about the “cold weather.” I sighed.
I walked to school. Not too many kids did, but a great majority of the ones who did were my friends.
“Liiiaaaaaaaaaaaam!” Someone was running behind me. I tried to search through the depths of my mind to think of who that voice could’ve been.
“Uh…uh…uh…” I turned around. “Victor!”
“Hey buddy! How was the break?”
“Pretty okay–”
“Didja write any looooove songs?”
“Sh-shut up.” I blushed.
“I didn’t know boys could blush! You wrote a love song! Was it about–”
“No. I’m not gonna talk about that now. Maybe later.”
“Fine. So do you think you’ll be getting on stage to perform one this year?”
“No way. Not gonna happen. I’m not getting on a stage.”
“Liam, you’ve got to sometime. Everyone needs their stage!”
“Yeah, everyone needs one, but not everyone uses it.”
“Yes! Everyone has to eventually! Come on!”
“Fine. My stage is in the corner and it’s really tiny and it’s where no one looks or wants to.”
“No way! You’re so wrong! You’re such a likable person! Why would there be such a tiny stage? You need a big place to faint while you sing!”
“Uh…yeah…um…”
“Seriously, Liam, I am going to force you to get onto the stage before graduation this year. Before you graduate!”
And with that he ran off, probably because he didn’t want to hear me denying how good I was. I was shy. I stopped walking and looked down at the pavement. Someone bumped into my from behind. I jolted up.
“What the–”
“Oh, oh my god, I’m so sorry!” I frantically apologized.
“Crud! How did I bump into you?”
“I-I-I’m so sorry–”
“Hm. Maybe I should stop spacing out while I walk.”
I turned around to see who’d bumped into me.
“Oh…Hi Katie…”
“How do you know my name?”
“We met earlier this year and you’re also in my math class.”
“Oh…so…who are you?”
“Liam.”
“Right. Uh…I’ve got to get to school…so bye.” she started walking briskly down the sidewalk, leaving me behind. I turned back the way I’d been walking and went to school.
Another day, another blank look from the girl I like who doesn’t know I exist.
“Gym class is unfair.” I complained, bending forward with my hands on my knees, catching my breath. We’d just run a mile around the field.
“Aw, don’t be so pessimistic about it. At least we don’t have it every day.”
“You’ve got me there. It’s better this way. Hey, Harry, why aren’t you ever reluctant for gym? Everyone else, including myself, despises the idea completely.”
“Actually, that’s mostly yourself. A lot of other kids at our school enjoy the idea of gym class, as a time for being social and active, unlike you usually get to be during academics.”
“Thank you Harry. It feels nice to be different.”
“Sarcasm is not the answer.” Harry responded. “Besides, you’re not the only one. I know Andrea, Victor, and Alex don’t like it. And I’m also sure that there’s more than that at this school. Don’t worry. You’re not totally alone.”
“Much appreciated.”
“Your welcome.”
“That’s a good thing.”
“Hah! Yeah, it is.” Harry started laughing, then contained himself. “So, are you getting on the stage this year?”
“Why is everyone asking me that?! I’m not going to get up on a stage! Not gonna happen. I’m too shy.” I declined him.
“But your songs are the best!”
“I’m not gonna do it. Period.”
“Shy guys never will live life to the best. Even if you are shy, we can like record it and have us standing on stage saying ‘Our friend is too shy to perform this himself, so we’ve recorded it and are going to put his own song on at the talent show…from a tape player.’ and then everything will be all better!”
“Uh…no. Why should I–”
“Fine, we won’t have a huge recording of it. So, what’s your latest song about anyway?”
“It’s not that great…It’s about how–” I was cut off by the gym teacher shouting at us.
“Come on! Get into your teams for Soccer!”
We lost twelve to nothing. I didn’t know that was possible. Usually people would only win by like one or two, but twelve? Well, I’m no athlete. I’m more of an artist. I paint, I write, mostly songs though. I dislike sports…very much.
“Good game.” I heard someone say to me, as I sat on the bench, looking down at my feet. I looked up. It was Jeremy.
“Yeah? What? I’m so sorry, I didn’t hear you. I was…lost.”
“Uh…what? Lost? You’ve been right here. I said good game.”
“Oh, yeah, you too. Why me?”
“Cause.”
Jeremy wasn’t normally nice to me. I didn’t know he even knew me. A thousand questions erupted in my head. Why are you talking to me? What’s going on? I lost, so why are you saying anything to me anyway? I didn’t do anything, so why congratulate me?
“Oh. Okay. Well…see ya.” I stood up and left before I lost control and started acting like an idiot and asking all my questions and trying to be friends. I had enough friends already. I wasn’t good at making friends. I was too shy. I had allies, I had enemies, I had acquaintances, I didn’t see why I should add another category titled “Questions.”
Questions would probably be it because I didn’t know what to think of them! Questions was the perfect title for the group, but why make it? I didn’t know if Jeremy would ever talk to me again anyway.
“Hi there, Liam!”
“Eh?” I looked up from my lunch.
“Don’t ‘Eh?’ me. You know it’s me.” It was Andrea. I’d known her for years. She was one of my best friends. She took the bus to school, so I never saw her in the mornings, except for lunch. I only had two classes with her on pattern one and a third one on pattern two. She hadn’t been in my homeroom once in the three years I’d spent at middle school, unfortunately. The best trate about Andrea besides her beauty was her honesty. She never told lies. In fact, she was incapable of it. Her heart and conscience wouldn’t allow it. If she lied or left someone behind, she’d immediately tell you the truth or run back to you and say she was sorry. You could always trust Andrea with yourself. If she promised not to tell anyone about something, she would not break that promise. She certainly was something. Andrea had long black hair, down to her waist, usually worn in a ponytail or a braid, but today it was down. In perfect contrast to her hair, her skin was pure white. Her eyes were green, like mine. They were the perfect shape. Andrea had a perfect complexion. I wondered why she wasn’t one of the more popular girls, or maybe she was popular but she hung out with me? I don’t know. She’d come from England five years before. When I first met her, I’ll admit, I had been infatuated.
“I’m sorry. I’m a little out of it today. Hi Andrea. Wanna sit with me?”
“I was going to ask if I could. Much appreciated if I could?” She had a wonderful accent.
“Of course.”
Andrea sat down next to me and scooted in her chair.
“So, how’s the day been for you so far?” she started the conversation.
“Interesting, I guess.”
“You guess? Tell me about it. I’d rather know about it than be the only one talking in a conversation mostly with myself.”
It was true. When I talked with her, she usually did most of the talking. Especially when we talked on the internet. I’d just put in one or two words and she’d go on talking about her day in paragraphs. She was talkative, very talkative.
“Well, I basically failed the running today in gym class.”
“Ooh. What did you get?”
“Eight forty-nine.” I sulked, putting my head to the table. Andrea comfortingly put her hand on my shoulder. I looked up at her.
“That’s not so bad.”
“For a boy, it is.”
“I got ten fifty-six.”
“It’s not as bad for you. The average for girls is like nine minutes anyway.”
“That doesn’t mean everyone has to get that, now does it?”
“No.” I sighed. It didn’t make me feel any better.
“Exactly. And you’re no athlete anyway. Pay it no heed. It doesn’t matter. Be a good Liam and be happy, regardless of what you and other people got on their running. What did everyone else get anyway?”
I gave her the death stare. “Seven. Everyone got somewhere in seven except for me and like two other boys and a bunch of girls.”
Andrea bit her lip.
“Wait, how did you get such a bad score?”
“I dunno. I’m feeling pretty out of it today. I got another blank stare from–”
“You got a bad score on running because you were thinking about Katie?” she gave me the ‘Are you serious?’ look. I nodded. “You idiot.” she rolled her eyes. “Is your head filled with rocks or something? I’ve known you to be smarter than that!”
“What do you mean?”
“Oy, Liam, Katie’s no reason to be so out of it you fail your mile.”
“I don’t know what you have against her.”
“I don’t either. She just…I don’t like her. Why are you so attached to running after her? You’ve been after her for like a year now. What’s wrong with you?! She’s nothing special. She’s just a big old popular girl with flowing red hair. Nothing much! What in the world do you see in her? I don’t get it!”
“What are you saying?”
“Liam, you barely even know the girl. I do. She’s no good. You’re wasting your time.”
“I don’t think so. I think she’s pretty. I think she’s a nice girl. I think she’s got good qualities. I don’t see what you don’t see in her.” I sat up, but she kept her hand on me.
“Why do you look so angry with me? I don’t get it!”
“I don’t like what you’re saying about her.”
“You barely know her!”
“From what I know, I think she’s a good person, and I don’t care what you say.”
“Look,” Andrea tried to calm me down. She softened her eyes, so to look sympathetic. “I don’t think anything terrible about her. I know she must have some good qualities, but others, that I know about, are really bad. She’s a jerk and a total freakishly mean girl…to girls. Boys think she’s an angel, girls think her an idiot and a brat. I’m glad you’ve found someone you like, but I’m disappointed it’s got to be someone like her.”
“Good afternoon, middle schoolers! Here are your afternoon announcments! First, of course as always, the list of students who have to come to the office for a message…” the voice of our vice principal, Mr. Alvin, came up on the PA system. He droned on for a minute with a long list of kids, then got on to the actual announcements. “…And now the real announcements! Welcome back to school, everyone. I’m sure each and every one of you had a great winter break and are glad to be back. I sure am! So, this afternoon, the first meeting of the Literary Circle will begin, in room one hundred and three. Also, if any of you want to buy spirit items, such as school shirts and bags and pants and sweatshirts, please come down tomorrow during lunch outside the cafiterea; there will be an array of items for sale, regarding to school spirit. Get your blue on today! Don’t forget, also meeting in the gym this afternoon is, yes you’ve all been waiting to hear it’s back, winter afterschool incompetitive sports! We have frizbee and the walking club back today and we’re all hoping you all stop by to play for a while. There will be the late bus, as you can all remember, coming at four o’ clock, so don’t forget that after you’re done in any of your clubs or even in the media center…get your late bus passes. We can remember oh, so many incidents where students haven’t had their passes. Well, have a nice day and we’ll see you and your shining faces back here tomorrow! See ya!”
We all raced out of our classrooms and packed up to get ready to leave. As I walked down the hallway and out the front doors of the school, someone called my name from behind me.
“Liam!”
“Yeah?” I turned around, hoping not to block the trafic of students. It was Harry.
“Good thing to see you. I heard something you might want to know about.”
“What is it? Let’s start walking.”
“I heard that someone leaked out your songs!”
“What?” I didn’t understand the term.
“Someone stole your notebook from you during one of your classes and showed it to everyone. People have read your songs, Liam!”
“Oh crap.” I stopped walking when we got across the street and sat down in the middle of the sidewalk and checked my backpack. He was right. My songbook that I always have with me, that I bring everywhere, basically my trademark, was gone.
Chapter Two
“What?! How’d that happen?!”
“I’m guessing someone picked it up who sits next to you and they opened it up when they noticed they had it like two periods later and shared it with everyone.”
“How do you know about this?”
“A boy was showing it to everyone.”
“WHO?!”
“Uh…he was tall, he had brown hair, wearing a white shirt and a tie, darkish skin, probably Asian, but I didn’t get so much of a good look at him, I just saw him reading something aloud with people around him and he and everyone else were laughing and someone made a remark something like ‘Liams songs are hilarious!’ and I’m just hoping you didn’t have all of your songs in there, right?”
“Er…”
“All of your songs were in it?”
“Not all of them. Some are on the floor in my room at home.”
“Well that doesn’t help too much. Uh…we could…I don’t know.”
“Wait, so he was probably Asian and he had brown hair? Most Asians have hair like mine.”
“Well do you know anyone like that?”
“Hmm..lemme think…” I searched my mind. I only knew a few people that could even half-fill that description. Craig, Tom, and Elijah. Tom had black hair and usually wore a tie to school, but he wasn’t really classified as tall. I’d say he was average. Craig could fit that description, and he’s also in my English class, but then again, so was Elijah. “What kind of brown? Light or dark?”
“Dark.”
“Craig.”
“Ready to assault?”
“No. Let’s wait till tomorrow.”
“You do notice that your songs could be across the world, on the internet, laughing stalk of the school, by then?”
“Not precisely. Do you know where Craig lives?”
“No. I think he takes the bus.”
“Alright. Let’s wait till tomorrow then.”
That night after I finished my homework, I took a walk outside in the cool, windy air. I had a blue windbreaker on, to keep me warm. My mom made sure I had it. If I didn’t she’d get really sore at me. I didn’t want that to happen. I decided to go a few houses down to ask for Harry. If he could come outside or if he’d finished his homework or anything I’d be okay. I needed a plan.
I knocked on his front door. He came to answer it.
“Yeah?”
“I need a plan. Come on a walk with me.”
“Kay. Lemme get me jacket.” Harry disappeared back into his house for a moment, then came back wearing his green jacket and stepped outside so we could walk. “What’s up?”
“I couldn’t sit around and do nothing. I need a plan to get back at Craig.”
“Are you sure it was him?”
“Well, I guess so. I mean, there could be someone else like him, but I think he’s the closest to your description we have.”
“Okay then.”
“But…I guess you have a point. We need a bit more information before we can make a justified answer that Craig was the one who stole my book. You know, it could’ve been someone else that stole it and that he was just reading them to everyone. Someone could’ve given them to him.” He had a point.
“That could be true, but that doesn’t mean we can’t assault him about it, does it?” I countered it. “He still did it, so that doesn’t mean we can’t interrogate him, not that I’d really be able to in reality.”
“Because you’re too shy.”
“Yeah. I would’ve said that.”
“But I beat you to it.”
“Yeah.”
“Well, if you need a plan, I’m glad you’ve come to me. I have one.”
“Why didn’t you tell me earlier when I said I needed a plan?”
“That’s a good question.”
“Thank you.”
“You’re welcome.”
“So then I guess you should tell me the plan?”
“No. I’m guessing it would be more fun to just let you wait and see. I’ll let you suffer for a day. It’ll be more amazing and, you know, more cool to watch if you don’t know what I’m gonna do.” And I guess he might have had a point there too.
“I don’t want to be left out of the attack, even if I back out, I want to know everything.”
“I’m gonna give him a piece of my mind.”
“Ew.”
“Not like that. I want him to know that messing with peoples’ songs and their artwork is not cool. It’s none of their business. What’s in your songbook should not be touched by anyone but you and your most trusted friends…or enemies, if that’s how you do it.”
“Have I ever let you hold my book?”
“No.”
“So no one should be touching my book unless it’s me. If he refuses to give it back, I don’t know what I’ll do. I can’t approach him or anything. I’m not that kind of guy who can do that. I just can’t.”
“I know. That’s why I’m doing it.”
“Then I’ll look like a wimp.”
“You are.”
“Thanks.”
“You’re welcome.”
“I just don’t want to look like I’m incapable of taking up my own battles. I don’t want it to look like you have to fight for me all the time cause I’m the wimp who couldn’t hurt a fly if he tried.”
“Andrea’s the one with the conscience.”
“I know! That’s not the point! I want to be able to do it myself.”
“But you can’t.”
“I know I can’t. I can try though, right?”
Harry stared long and thoughtfully at me. I expected his answer to be something at least a bit hopeful.
Well, Harry would usually put something pretty flat out unless he wanted to hide something, so he was probably going to say simply a yes or a no. I awaited his answer. I anticipated it. I came to my senses. I knew his answer before he said it.
“No.” I mouthed the words with him. “You would most likely be very incapable of actually going straight up to Craig and asking him if he did it, then interrogating him to get the answers out of him. You’d be simply incapable.”
“I know.”
On the whole way to and into school, people either giggled, jeered, made jokes, asked me if I had any new songs out, basically acted like total jerks. Even Eric. I thought Eric was my friend. Well, maybe. We never hung out. I think I’d met him like two years before. We didn’t really converse that much, but I still thought we at least had a little bit of friendship in there.
“Are you ready?” Harry asked me.
“I don’t think so.”
“He’s right there. We have two minutes to get it out of him.”
“Okay.”
We approached Craig slowly, making our way though the teasing crowd. I scowled at anyone who dared to say anything. They didn’t care at all.
“Craig.” I started.
“Oh, well hello, Liam! How many songs have you got for us today?”
“Where’s my songbook?”
“Oh, you mean this?” He rummaged around in his backpack for a moment, then pulled out a notebook—my notebook. I impulsively grabbed for it. He pulled away.
“That’s mine.”
“Why should I give it to you? What proof do I have that it’s your’s?”
“Because that’s my handwriting in it, and that’s my name on the front.”
Harry didn’t make a sound the whole time. I wondered why.
“Fine, you can have it, it really doesn’t matter. Everyone knows about it already. I should just give it up. I don’t see why not. If I don’t give it back you can’t write anything else, and then we can’t laugh and have a good time. That’s a problem, now isn’t it?”
“Yes, it is, so why don’t you just give back my notebook, and then we can all be happy?”
“Um, I don’t think so.”
“What the heck is wrong with you?! You just said you’d give it back!”
“I said I should.”
“No you didn’t! You said I can have it!”
“No, I don’t think you should now.”
“What’s wrong with you?!”
“I can change my mind can’t I?!”
“No! Not right now! Give me my notebook!”
“I don’t think so!”
Before I could do anything else, Harry finally came in and helped me. I was kind of surprised at the way he came right out.
He grabbed Craig by the arms and put their faces so they were about an inch apart. Harry was at least three inches taller than Craig. He seemed so intimidating. I’d hate to be in Craig’s position right then. Harry spoke soft and slowly, so articulate, he sounded like he had an accent.
“I think you should give Liam back his notebook, before we have to take this to a painful level.” Harry said.
Craig put his arms up as if he was just told by the police to do so, still with a smirking face, and slammed my notebook down on the table, sliding it my way. His smirk turned into a frown, which turned the whole argument into a stare-down between the two. I immediately grabbed for my book, making sure it was all in there. I flipped through all the pages, scanning for any replaced words, cross-outs, graffiti, but on the back cover on the inside, when I got there, there, in huge red bubble letters, were the words “Liam’s an idiot, his songs suck, his ideas are putrid, and he is a total failure at life.” Other things written on the cardboard back cover inside were “Ryon wuz here!” and “Ellie luvs the song about the girl w/ brown hair!” and “Liam’s a retard!” and of course, “Katie wuz here. Remember, you’re a freak!”
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